Another frustrating Dr visit

My visit to Dr Phan, my family doctor, was a little trying. After explaining to him about how I daily have problems concentrating, and many days falling to sleep still, I expressed my frustration in finding a course of action so that I can get back on course to at least begin looking for work again. His response "Oh, I do not see any reason why you cannot look for work."

So the fact that I cannot concentrate, and the fact that my comprehension skills are diminished, and the fact that I may need to sleep for a few hours in the day, these are not limiting factors for looking for work?

For instance, this morning I went out to breakfast with a few guys from South Portland First Baptist Church at Uncle Andy's in South Portland. I did fairly good there but by the end I could feel myself starting to slip. By the time I got home at 9 I had to lay down and sleep and I slept until 1 pm.

I think it is time to begin looking for a new MD, one that better understands the nature and impact that migraines can have in a person's life, or at least one that listens to me and comprehends what it means when I say that I need help in trying to manage these migraines.

In the meantime Dr Phan has told me that I should go back to see the neurologists for further treatment.

Concentration Lost

Embers of memories dance in my mind this morning, flashing like lightning bugs in the summer grasses causing distractions, making it impossible to focus. There is a constant annoying internal buzz that I hear, some call it white noise but it is loud, very loud for me. Perhaps it is just my auditory sensitivity that makes me acutely aware of its presence and how it distracts me.

I am deeply distracted this morning. I try to focus on my daily Bible reading and it is hard to keep that focus, which is unusual for me at least this early in the morning. So I turn to prayer and it is hard to focus on prayer. I feel agitated and ... well distracted.

The lack of concentration is probably one of the most annoying traits of my migraines. It affects my ability to study, to recall information I should know, to learn new things.

I desperately wish these migraines would go away and I could get back to work. I am bored around here and wish for some level of normalcy.